It took a lot of guts, but I decided to start streaming again.
You may or may not know, but I have another blog @ www.simcerelylucie.wordpress.com which showcases a project I’m doing on the Sims 4 by filling every single household and build with my own personal creations. Basically scrapping any pre-exting ones provided by the base game.
I thought to myself, why don’t I stream while I build and create? I’m already playing the game for the project so what’s stopping me?
If I can be real, it was a big challenge to start streaming video games again. My last experience started well and the channel was gaining popularity like I couldn’t believe, but I was in a bad place, and it was in a past life that is still taking me a long time to move forward from. I feel like this will be one of the first steps to getting over my past issues. I had this fear of streaming because of my past relationship and how it had affected so many aspects of my life. Streaming video games was one of those things that I still associated with the dark times, so that’s why it’s been slightly difficult to feel confident about my decision to start a new channel. I don’t want to go into details because it’s in the past, but I just associated streaming to really bad times. It’s hard to get over feelings like that, you know? You can’t just wake up one morning and think “Finally, I am no longer affected by my past.” HA. Yeah right, as if it were that simple. ANYWAYS, let’s get out of that dark circle and back into the light.
It’s been almost 3 years since I’ve streamed now, and I finally feel ready because this time, I am in control of the content and I can decide what I want to do. I can control the mood of the stream and play whatever games I want. No more pressures set by others, no more restrictions and regulations. I am in control. Which is why I feel like this is going to be good for me. Part of the healing process you know? My past can affect me, but I don’t want it to confine me. I want to do the things I love and move forward.
Besides, I built myself a brand new rockin’ PC that can finally handle streaming. I don’t have a webcam yet, but I probably will by the end of the month.
Feel free to check out the channel here : https://www.twitch.tv/nattyjoinedtheclub
Disclosure: There is no set schedule as of yet. I’ll just stream when I have the time, since I’m starting my fourth year of university and I kind of have to give that priority. Since you know, it is costing me tens of thousands of dollars. Once school is done, I’ll be able to create a steady schedule that people can rely on. I swear, I’m reliable, just give me until May 2019. heh.
YAY! GO ME!